Thursday, 20 November 2008 @ 17:34
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i think im a nocturnal person o.o i am super awake and hyper at night but in the morning im just like BLAH LEMME SLEEP WAAAAAAAH
who stays awake at NIGHT ?!
but theres NOTHING to do at night D: except for go clubbing and stuff. have a night life. lol.
--------------AHHH JAE HO IS ONLINE :D but im appearing offline lol. cause my mom caught me on msn a few times yesterday so shes forbidding me to use msn.
so most of the time its on lock :P im able to type this now cause my mom just sees me typing a whole bunch of words and assume that im working :D
ahhh jae ho T~T now i only see him in hallways when we rush to our classes. so all we go is HI:DD ...... *rushes to class*
eh that reminds me of jay. karen claims that the clothing he gave me (WHICH IS NOT LINGERIE FYI COUGHCOUGHCOUGH) is real juicy o.o it looks so fake though.
BUT WHATEVER D: he gave me something so now i must:
1- REMEMBER HIS BIRTHDAY AND GIVE SOMETHING BACK (lol when is it lemme check)
JULY 21. he is younger than me by a few weeks o_O
AHHHHH now i have to add his birthday to the super short list of birthdays i ACTUALLY remember. seriously i can not remember birthdays AND names D:
like when i read manga, i can NEVER remember what their names are, especially cause its jap and stuff. so after i finish it i can never talk about them with lina cause i'll be like
:"YEAHYEAH THE GUY WITH A LONG CAT TAIL! nono NOT HIM! ITS the OTHER guy. THE ONE WHO WENT OUT WITH uhhh the PINK GIRL at like ther first few chapters! nono NOT THAT girl its her sis's friend! wait are we talking about the same girl ._. huh nononononono"
lol okay. so yeah so far the only birthdays i have managed to remember:
- CHANJUS :D 31 dec. easy enough.
- FUCK i dont even know linas D: i only know hers now cause its this saturday. 22/11
- mmm aarons lol. dont ask why T_T feb 28. wait i think it is. it better be D: or is it 23?!
- this guy called jun jie whom i have disliked and deleted from my msn list, random guy in the school qj wants to go to D: -----> jan 23 OR 28
- QJ'S :D OCT 1 the day i came to shanghai too!~
- UHH franks bday lol. im not even sure if he gave me the right one. march 11.
- my family's/
i would have typed theirs out here but my mom doesnt like it D: once she told me it was bad cause people will find out and can use it to curse you. or do voodoo on you. or something.
must be some chinese superstition, stuff from JOY LUCK CLUB D: that book is what we're doing in school now and its SO DARK D:> theres this time where this girl saw her own brother drown and since she doesnt know or just doesnt make descisions, she was thinking :"should i call my parents? by the time they come will the be able to save him? or should i go pull him out? but i cant swim so by the time i get there he might have drowned and so would i. but if i shout to my parents now will can they hear me? and they would have to run all the way here too so it might be too late."
so she was thinking and thinking and thinking and her brother just drowned D; and was never found.
okay yeah i keep changing subjects XD ANYWAY thats the list. THATS ALL D: i dunno all u other ppls bdays im sorry.
OH I SHOULD ASK FOR JAE HO'S BDAY. HOW COME I NEVER THOUGHT OF THAT D:
oh wait it just passed right. AHHH WHEN WAS THAT =.="
oh right back to the list.
2. go ktv with jay T~T
he has been asking me(and na young) for like the past. 2 months i guess? cause we kind of promised him we would when we were in china alive lol but we kept making up excuses after that.
eeeeeeeeehhhh. WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY
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i feel so unemotional lol. like a sloth lina. except i talk way more.
oh oh MAX is the best conversationalist (<- such a word?!) ever! haha lina i get along well with guys that have more yin than yang :D like jerry and ashim(even though he doesnt talk much on msn.) and MAX HAHAHAHAHA.
seriously. he is awesome rofl cause u know now that i have come to sas i dont talk as much =.= so i talk really little and after a while theres nothing to talk about. and i dont bother to try to continue the conversation even though i still want to talk. oh im not making sense.
anyway all i have to say is one sentence, and max will reply like five :D and he'll tell me everything thats been going on in school even when i didnt ask
plus after i have commented and have nothing more to say he tells me MORE stuff about whats going on in ssis lol
YAY MAX :D he says he's melting though (vanilla ice cream melting. lol.) cause ssis is SO SO BORING and he wants to go back shsid where he knows the 300+ ppl in the grade.
when ssis only has like 70 lol
so its like. WO DE QING CHUN JIU ZHE YANG FEI ZOU LE T~T
haha can u guys even read and get that XD
oh now whenever i see alex i will think hes depressed .__.
how he looks like | mental image
:) | :(
:)) | :((
:D | D:
:DD | DD:
;DDD | DDD;
and so on .___. lol.
OH RIGHT I KEEP CHANGING TOPICS TODAY D:
uh as i was saying. i am extremely emotionless right now .__.
im not feeling happy enough to say im happy.
or sad enough to say im sad.
or depressed enough to say im depressed.
im like. on the border line of everything D: im just ----> :|
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im not exactly bored. but im not really having fun too.
ah i must go do something to determine my mood.
oh i shall ask something from my mom! if she says yes (which she ussually agrees. once in a blue moon.) THEN i would be super happy cause she ussually says no. well if she says no i'll feel way depressed cause. i always have high hopes -___-
i feel like theres nothing to look forward to everyday. its just the same over and over again.
after a days over its just like *unenthusiastic voice*:"whoo i survived today...hope i do again tommorrow." haha yeah. !!! i just realise im turning into QJ D: oh no. thats horrible .__.
i have to cheer up fast. oh right there IS something to look forward to tommorrow.
ice skating with you guys(: YAY and saturday -> linas bday YAY YAY plus penguin too~
): i really dont like sas, its so different. haha must be my upteenth time complaining.
but really! i dont have my old friends i have to adapt to a new environment i need to start making new friends and my eq is the worst EVER plus i have to get used to the curriculum.
and start a new social life all over D8
lina is concordia really better? or its just cause you're good at getting to know new people =.="
ahhh i need a new way to think of this situation.
HMM. uhhh.
okay. so i was in ssis. i knew/was great friends with everyone. so its like now its my "territory".
so i have to get out of this "territory" aka comfort zone and get to know MORE people from NEW places and when i do, i will expand this "territory" of mine and AT LAST
I WILL KNOW EVERYONE IN THE WORLD
WHICH MEANS THE WORLD SHALL BE MY TERRITORY
WHICH MEANS I WOULD HAVE CONQUERED THE WORLD WHICH MEANS I SHALL DICTATE THE WORLD MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA
*-akward silence-*
i bet im the only one who gets what i just said lol. so gibberish.
LMAO i should have just swoped "territory" with social circle. MAKES MUCH MORE SENSE THAT WAY.
okay i think i just motivated myself?! self motivation?! ahahahaha?
... but other than that i still dont feel anything .____. *still emotionless*
im not even EMO. ahhhhh.
HOLY SHIT i just realised the only reason (FORNOW) that i like jae ho is cause he is NICE D;
I BETTER FIND OUT SOME OTHER GOOD POINTS ABOUT HIM LOL
FUCKK NICEEEEE
PS: today me and jia yi and marguerite were thinking about HOW COME korean has like so many powerful swearwords.
and english too.
but chinese. what are the WORST swear words that you know?! D; they're not that bad compared to the other languages' swear words. o_o
so we started thinking and swearing on the lunch tables lol
i should go ask kaka she so knows how to swear :D SPEAKING OF WHICH IM SEEING HER TOMMORROW ASSA!(oh thats YAY in korean. yeah i am feeling totally asian right now. i feel like speaking in korean or chinese. just not english-.-)
PPS: i dont even know why anna and brenna want to come over to sas lol.
okay fine brenna the school here is awesome blahh and the studies is better so yeah. come over :D
but anna O_O the guys over here are not THAT hot.
CHOI IS STILL THE CUTEST eh.(by choi i meant jae yun not choi jae ho. lol.) and the rest are either taken or gay - (quoted by tina)
wait i dont think any are gay okay nevermind.
plus u guys would transfer to puxi anyway since u guys live in puxi, and bianca says that pudong guys are cuter .___.
.________________________________. shit i have lots of homework to do.
OH BTW i didnt sleep in math class today AT ALL even though mr hing was WAY boring
and the class is always SO quiet and he rarely gets us to do stuff, only listen. so it gets so sleepy, his speeches/explanations are like a lullaby
i am proud of myself ._.
